Whispers of Change

September marks a year since I started the blog. It is a season of change, of reflection and new beginnings.

My life has presented me with great changes during this time. Many big life changes have occurred during September and this year hasn't been any different. With just over 3 months to the new year “2023” I put in some time to complete my yearly audit on all that I had planned for this year. It was not an easy task. I made a lot of adjustments and concessions on how everything turned out.

I had a long shopping list for 2022 and was ready for some action followed by high fives to close off the year. Well... I’ve managed to put some of the list in the basket, a big kudos to me and some I saw them flying out of the basket, while others are just hovering.

On this one plan, all the answers were presented before me, but I ignored the instincts and soft whispers and “prayed” it away. I was armed with scriptures and threw in Hezekiel’s prayer telling God my entire story and waiting for an “additional 15 years” to it. 

I pondered a lot on Proverbs 19v21 that says “Many are the plans in a man’s mind, but it is the Lord’s purpose for him that will stand” and indeed God is the Ultimate. He is in charge and may change our course whenever he sees fit and MAN has he not changed the course. Many times, I’ve cried through the review conflicted if I should beat myself up or just accept God’s will with my life.

My little world crumbled, I felt attacked on all fronts, nothing was to my liking, I clung on to hope and faith but my victory was taking time to happen.

The noises and questions in my head screamed “how did you get here?” I felt lost and needed to reassess my motives and actions. They say the best thing about getting lost is finding yourself again.

Then this one morning I woke up with great hope that things cannot be that bad. I decided to take a chance, to listen and to look for myself. 

Have I found myself? Well some days it’s a big YES and some days I’m just floating, and it is okay by me.

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I have learned to live in the moment though some days I still find myself over thinking things.

I am accepting things as they are.

I have realised that “my way”may not always be the right way and may lead to many disappointments

I have adopted the attitude that; If it doesn’t happen, it is not meant to happen. There must be another way, another option and it will come in its own time.

I have given up on always trying to be in control. In reality, there is nothing we can control.

I find myself chanting the mantra “Let Go and Let God”

I am hoping there is something better and worthwhile waiting for me once I let go.

Despite it all, I still plan to the T, I just don’t hold too tight to the plan and I’m getting to see an easier path. If anything is left, let's give everything our best effort but have no expectation in the result.

Go with the flow

Follow your Spirit

Trust the Whispers

Keep the Faith

It's still a Wondrous Wednesday

Likha~Biso ❤️